I know it's been a while since I've updated but things have been super hectic.
I made a decision to change jobs in the midst of everything going on. I am now an education assistant in a head start. The pay stinks but the hours are wonderful. Now I work days and Dave is on nights. This way when we get our miracle one of us will always be home. We figured this was the best plan instead of looking at childcare.
In actual adoption news we completed our homestudy and everything went well. We are licensed to foster for adoption in the state of Illinois. I was so worried about everything the entire time but the more time we spent with our wonderful social worker the easier things became. I seriously feel blessed to be working with her. She is making this process much less stressful.
Now we have to wait for her to finish our "book" about us and then we are officially in the waiting for the phone to ring phase. Aka the worst part of the whole damn process.
Since changing jobs we haven't been able to save as much money as we'd have liked so we are going to be doing a benefit fundraiser event soon and are hoping to get some money for that. We are also going to be starting a gofundme campaign.
If anyone would like to donate here is the link. http://www.gofundme.com/fivecoatadoption
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Friday, July 18, 2014
Adoption Update
Update time!
Since my last post we have been officially accepted into the adoption program. We began more of the paper work and did our first appointment in the home study. During this time all of our references were sent their packets to begin filling out. Hopefully they all have great things to say lol.
Our next home study appointment will be in two short weeks! We are hoping to have the nursery done by then so we can really show our Adoption Agent the commitment we have to this. As far as the nursery goes we have picked out a pretty grey color for the walls that we can add color accents to when we find out the gender.
We are also going to be having a yard sale coming up to help raise some money. We put the word out to friends and family and the support has been amazing. So many people have donated things for us to sell. We are hoping to make enough to pay at least a good chunk of the home study fees.
We have a whole list of books we need to be reading and I am finally starting to get them so I can start.
It's crazy to me how fast this is moving. I am so excited and scared. I can't wait until I have a baby in my arms I can call mine.
Since my last post we have been officially accepted into the adoption program. We began more of the paper work and did our first appointment in the home study. During this time all of our references were sent their packets to begin filling out. Hopefully they all have great things to say lol.
Our next home study appointment will be in two short weeks! We are hoping to have the nursery done by then so we can really show our Adoption Agent the commitment we have to this. As far as the nursery goes we have picked out a pretty grey color for the walls that we can add color accents to when we find out the gender.
We are also going to be having a yard sale coming up to help raise some money. We put the word out to friends and family and the support has been amazing. So many people have donated things for us to sell. We are hoping to make enough to pay at least a good chunk of the home study fees.
We have a whole list of books we need to be reading and I am finally starting to get them so I can start.
It's crazy to me how fast this is moving. I am so excited and scared. I can't wait until I have a baby in my arms I can call mine.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
On to a New Adventure
Well we've officially started the adoption process. It's such a big step that we both felt like we were completely ready for. After looking through our options and at all the different agencies we found one we are very happy with so far and are looking at Domestic Infant Adoption. This means we should be getting a baby that is no more than a few days old!
We are starting the homestudy phase and man is this a lot of work. I never knew my house could be so clean lol. We are also in the process of setting up the nursery and man is that a lot of work. We have to make sure it's gender neutral since we won't know the gender until the baby is here. We also have to buy all the necessary "baby accessories". It's so crazy to think just a few months ago we were talking about the real possibility of never having children and now suddenly BAM we are setting up for baby.
Another big decision that we've made is that I will be breastfeeding. It sounds so crazy and I didn't even know it was possible but apparently it is. I will be starting hormones soon to get my body ready with the help of a lactation specialist. I am so excited and scared at the same time. I think this will the child and I bond so much. Not to mention of course the many health benefits for the baby.
I will be trying to blog throughout this journey to give people insight to our journey. I will also be using this place as one of the many places I will be posting our fundraising events. Adoption is definitely a scary, wonderful journey but also an expensive one. We need to raise at least $16,000 to cover the costs.
It's crazy waking up each day and going through so many emotions at once. Everyday it ranges from being so excited, to terrified, to confused, worried, nauseous, and then back to excited again. My poor husband is going to have me committed soon I swear. I never realized how emotional I could become looking at something as simple as a stain on the counter tops. You look at it and suddenly worry that your house isn't good enough and just know that, that is going to be the stain that makes the social worker say no you aren't cut out to be parents. I know after the "breakdown" I'm stressing over nothing but it's so hard to control all these emotions that are building up inside. I'm not even sure it's possible to focus on anything but this at the moment. I feel like at any moment I am just going to burst from all the stress and anxiety building inside of me.
It's not just the fear of being rejected by the agency though, what if no birth mothers want us, or what if the baby doesn't bond with. Or the biggest what if of all, what if we find out we are terrible parents. My husband is constantly telling me I need to breathe and relax and that it will all work out but I really feel as if THESE WHAT-IFS ARE TRYING TO KILL ME!
In the end I know it will all be worth it, when we finally have a baby to love and call our own. It will be so nice to finally have that missing piece we have been looking for. I really do believe we will be great parents even with the moments of sudden panic. I think I have been working so hard to be a parent and not having it happen that I am sort of still in shock that it may finally be.
Let the waiting begin!
http://www.youcaring.com/adoption-fundraiser/we-re-going-on-an-adventure-/186717
We are starting the homestudy phase and man is this a lot of work. I never knew my house could be so clean lol. We are also in the process of setting up the nursery and man is that a lot of work. We have to make sure it's gender neutral since we won't know the gender until the baby is here. We also have to buy all the necessary "baby accessories". It's so crazy to think just a few months ago we were talking about the real possibility of never having children and now suddenly BAM we are setting up for baby.
Another big decision that we've made is that I will be breastfeeding. It sounds so crazy and I didn't even know it was possible but apparently it is. I will be starting hormones soon to get my body ready with the help of a lactation specialist. I am so excited and scared at the same time. I think this will the child and I bond so much. Not to mention of course the many health benefits for the baby.
I will be trying to blog throughout this journey to give people insight to our journey. I will also be using this place as one of the many places I will be posting our fundraising events. Adoption is definitely a scary, wonderful journey but also an expensive one. We need to raise at least $16,000 to cover the costs.
It's crazy waking up each day and going through so many emotions at once. Everyday it ranges from being so excited, to terrified, to confused, worried, nauseous, and then back to excited again. My poor husband is going to have me committed soon I swear. I never realized how emotional I could become looking at something as simple as a stain on the counter tops. You look at it and suddenly worry that your house isn't good enough and just know that, that is going to be the stain that makes the social worker say no you aren't cut out to be parents. I know after the "breakdown" I'm stressing over nothing but it's so hard to control all these emotions that are building up inside. I'm not even sure it's possible to focus on anything but this at the moment. I feel like at any moment I am just going to burst from all the stress and anxiety building inside of me.
It's not just the fear of being rejected by the agency though, what if no birth mothers want us, or what if the baby doesn't bond with. Or the biggest what if of all, what if we find out we are terrible parents. My husband is constantly telling me I need to breathe and relax and that it will all work out but I really feel as if THESE WHAT-IFS ARE TRYING TO KILL ME!
In the end I know it will all be worth it, when we finally have a baby to love and call our own. It will be so nice to finally have that missing piece we have been looking for. I really do believe we will be great parents even with the moments of sudden panic. I think I have been working so hard to be a parent and not having it happen that I am sort of still in shock that it may finally be.
Let the waiting begin!
http://www.youcaring.com/adoption-fundraiser/we-re-going-on-an-adventure-/186717
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
I have decided to try different things that have been suggested to me during this 2ww. Tonight's activity is cooking. First I made myself a birthday cake. My birthday is Sunday and since I am pretty much skint I won't be doing much. The cake is a pink lemonade cake with with pink lemonade frosting and I added my own little flairs for decorations.
I also decided to make a special dinner for tonight. I have been told that if I have a favorite food I should make it now because if I get my BFP who knows if baby will like it, especially if it's a strong flavor or smell. Well I absolutely love garlic bread so I made a home-made garlic bread that the hubby and I love. I added a few more cloves of garlic than I normally would to make sure I get my fill lol. I am also making spaghetti with a roasted garlic sauce. I am hoping this will take care of any cravings if we do get our rainbow.
I am not sure what I am going to do tomorrow but I have tons of ideas. If anyone else has any ideas please feel free to share them!
I also decided to make a special dinner for tonight. I have been told that if I have a favorite food I should make it now because if I get my BFP who knows if baby will like it, especially if it's a strong flavor or smell. Well I absolutely love garlic bread so I made a home-made garlic bread that the hubby and I love. I added a few more cloves of garlic than I normally would to make sure I get my fill lol. I am also making spaghetti with a roasted garlic sauce. I am hoping this will take care of any cravings if we do get our rainbow.
I am not sure what I am going to do tomorrow but I have tons of ideas. If anyone else has any ideas please feel free to share them!
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Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Well, today was the big day. I had my 2nd IUI today and "clinically" everything looked good (TMI ALERT: my cervix was open and my cervical mucus was good. And of course the hubby's count was excellent, motility was a little slow but nothing too bad. I even got to see all the little guys under a microscope which was awesome.
Next Tuesday we have to go in for a progesterone test and hopefully its above 10! If it is that means I ovulated strong and there's a better chance of conception. Then one week after that is the test and hopefully we get our BFP.
The two week wait is one of the most nerve wracking experiences a person has to go through. The range of emotions experienced in those two weeks is just insane. I have never been so happy, sad, hopeful, nervous, anxious, doubtful, worried, and thoughtful in such a short span in my life. This can all happen in less than five minutes by the way.
During these 2 weeks I am going to count on my husband to keep my pee-on a stick- aholic ways under control. I know by the end of week one I'll be dying to test and if I get a BFN I know I'll be upset. I am going to try to make it the whole two weeks this time. Luckily I have a very supportive, understanding husband who knows that if I do cheat and test early and get the bfn that my screaming and crying doesn't mean I've "completely" lost it. Who knew peeing on a stick could make a person hate everything and everyone so much.
Next Tuesday we have to go in for a progesterone test and hopefully its above 10! If it is that means I ovulated strong and there's a better chance of conception. Then one week after that is the test and hopefully we get our BFP.
The two week wait is one of the most nerve wracking experiences a person has to go through. The range of emotions experienced in those two weeks is just insane. I have never been so happy, sad, hopeful, nervous, anxious, doubtful, worried, and thoughtful in such a short span in my life. This can all happen in less than five minutes by the way.
During these 2 weeks I am going to count on my husband to keep my pee-on a stick- aholic ways under control. I know by the end of week one I'll be dying to test and if I get a BFN I know I'll be upset. I am going to try to make it the whole two weeks this time. Luckily I have a very supportive, understanding husband who knows that if I do cheat and test early and get the bfn that my screaming and crying doesn't mean I've "completely" lost it. Who knew peeing on a stick could make a person hate everything and everyone so much.
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Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Since it's been a while I figured I should do a quick update. I just finished round two of Femara. They doubled my dosage this time so fingers crossed I will ovulate towards the end of next week sometime. As soon as I do I will be going in for 2nd IUI. I have heard that your chances increase with each one so I am really hoping that this works and if it does it sticks. We are so ready for our rainbow baby.
Over the last few months we have really sat down and thought out names and themes for nurseries. I think it has really helped us. It makes it feel like all this work is worth it. As much as all this work and waiting suck it does have one advantage. It has really given us time to think out and talk through all the things a lot of other couples aren't lucky enough to. We have talked about both of our views on raising children from the big things (like education, religion, sex, etc...) to the small things (like play time, naps, clothing, etc...). While I know that you can never be fully prepared to be a parent and to face all the challenges and decisions I feel like we have a really good foundation started.
When I first met my husband I never really thought about all this stuff (being only 15). I knew that I wanted kids and before we got married I knew that he did too (if he didn't that would have been a deal breaker for me), but I never realized how much involvement there was from each parent in raising a child. I never knew simple things like what to feed them or what time they went to bed would harbor such strong opinions in different people. And that's just the little stuff. Granted even the little stuff is important and I know we could have worked it out during the actual raising a baby process (which I'm sure we still will when new situations arise or our so well thought out plans fail) but I am still really glad we had the chance to talk all these things out. I feel like it has united us more and will help us be better parents in the long run.
Over the last few months we have really sat down and thought out names and themes for nurseries. I think it has really helped us. It makes it feel like all this work is worth it. As much as all this work and waiting suck it does have one advantage. It has really given us time to think out and talk through all the things a lot of other couples aren't lucky enough to. We have talked about both of our views on raising children from the big things (like education, religion, sex, etc...) to the small things (like play time, naps, clothing, etc...). While I know that you can never be fully prepared to be a parent and to face all the challenges and decisions I feel like we have a really good foundation started.
When I first met my husband I never really thought about all this stuff (being only 15). I knew that I wanted kids and before we got married I knew that he did too (if he didn't that would have been a deal breaker for me), but I never realized how much involvement there was from each parent in raising a child. I never knew simple things like what to feed them or what time they went to bed would harbor such strong opinions in different people. And that's just the little stuff. Granted even the little stuff is important and I know we could have worked it out during the actual raising a baby process (which I'm sure we still will when new situations arise or our so well thought out plans fail) but I am still really glad we had the chance to talk all these things out. I feel like it has united us more and will help us be better parents in the long run.
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